I am seven days into the New Year and the calendar
on my cubical wall still shows December. I just am not motivated to change
it. My resolution for this year is not to update it. What difference would it make? At the end of
the day, it is just another “x” in a square. The x’s form...
Friday, January 7, 2022
Monday, April 24, 2017
Neighbors
I watched from the kitchen window as Lily played in the backyard. My brother had given us one of those Fisher Price play sets and Lily loved playing on it every day. He no longer needed it and felt we could use it for Lily and Stefan. Thinking about it, I don’t...
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
I Woke Up After Killing Myself
I woke up after killing myself last night. That’s not hyperbole, I literally killed
myself last night. All the crap and pain I’ve caused those I love culminated
in a moment I’ve been fantasizing about for years. Since I was a teenager and felt I didn’t
belong, I always knew my life was worth less than those around me. I’ve always
been too weak to go through with the deed...
Wednesday, January 18, 2017
Rain. Soil. Home.
The kids were racing each other from the northeast corner of
the backyard when it started to rain. My
eight year old, Cally, started to freak out and sprinted the thirty yards or so
to take shelter where we were on the back patio. The other four embraced the afternoon
shower. Leaving little footprints in the
soil, they laughed, played, and danced.
My wife and I hadn’t seen...